Daily Archives: August 15, 2010

What a Life I have…

Hello everyone,

I am still baking some fair entries today, just some cookies today and tomorrow I’ll be baking some bread. Still don’t know how many I have made yet. I haven’t kept track! LOL!!!

I have been dealing with a family member that has betrayed me this past week. I was so angry with him that (it’s my brother) I said some pretty nasty words to him, I just texted them to him. This is hard for me to write down, I have debated on whether or not I wanted to write about this. I think I need to so that other people know that they are not the only one’s to go through what I did. Several years ago I was drugged and raped by someone I considered like a brother to me. We had went to school together and he lived in hour home with my parents and brother and sister for a couple of years. At first when I told my parent’s about it they accused me of being a liar, and so did another family member. My parent’s convinced me that I dreamed it all up and I thought I was crazy. This went on for several years, until I met my husband. With his support and love I was able to confront my parents about this and they believe me now. When I told my grandparents they believed me and my grandfather would kill him if he came around again. The problem is that my brother added my rapist again as his Facebook page. I tried talking to him about it, because I wanted to know why he would do such a thing to me. I am deeply hurt by this. Plus I am scared for my niece, she is a young developing lady and I am scared that he will hurt her to. This person has hurt not only me, but someone else I know.  I have written to her mother my brother’s ex about this as well. I hope we can do something about this. I told everyone I have nothing to gain by telling them this other than being shut out by my brother who doesn’t believe me. By the way he is the asshole I was talking about! I can’t send my rapist to prison either, because the statue of limitations is 5 years and this happened in the summer of 98. I feel so hopeless about this situation, I don’t know what else to do. Most of my family won’t or are not willing to help, they think my brother and I need to work this out on our own, but how can I when he betrays me like this and won’t talk to me. He has blocked me on Facebook and on his cell phone. I am very angry with him. When he got divorced from his ex, Ray and I did a lot of free babysitting and did what we could to help him through it. We have also made a lot of special birthday parties and fathers day parties for him and his kids. We do that for all our family, I haven’t this past year because I was so sick. I just feel hopeless about this right now, and I needed to vent. 

Until next time..



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Fair Fever!!!

Hello everyone,

I am still baking thing’s for the state fair. I don’t know how many entries I am up to. I will be working on them until Monday night. My husband say’s honey the freezer is getting full!!! I just laugh and say I know! A lot of the stuff I make on Monday won’t or can’t be frozen anyway. I double wrap my entries and then wrap them in freezer paper. I’m sure some of you are wondering what does she do with all the leftovers?? Well I have learned over the years how to cut recipes in half so that instead of making 12 muffins I get 6 muffins, I do that with all the stuff I make. Then when I am done I put the leftovers on tray’s and send them with my husband to his office. They love my stuff there. I used to give stuff to my family, but I stopped because they seem to get tired of it. I’ll post more about all this on Tuesday, that’s when I have to take my entries in.

I didn’t bake for Ronald McDonald house on Friday, and I feel bad about that. I really wanted to go there. For the last 3-4 weeks I have been having a lot of pain needle like stabbing pain and I couldn’t figure out why. I went to see my Dr. on Monday and she said it was because of my iron being so low. The normal level is 50 she said and mine is clear down to 15, she said that’s why I’m hurting so bad. I am taking the iron pills she gave me and today is the first day that I haven’t been in pain all day. I was having a hard time driving as well, my feet started to feel like they were going numb. It was really scary to drive to the Dr. office the other day with my feet feeling like that. This is why I didn’t go to Ronald McDonald house, and it takes about 45 minutes to get there from my house and there is always a lot of traffic. I have to keep taking these pills because there is only 1 other thing the Dr. can give me and that would be a blood transfusion and I really don’t want that!!!

Well I better go for now, I just wanted to give you all an update on everything.

Have a great day!!

Amanda 🙂

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Posted by on August 15, 2010 in Uncategorized